Finishing

“Boredom is a sin, an insult to God to ignore all his miracles.”

Thomas Alvin Bessey, AKA Dad

In March of 2020, I qualified in all the serious risk categories for Covid.

Uh oh. I think I have a problem.

I was grounded by my doctor but it didn’t bother me as much as I expected because I am so easily entertained.

I love crafting and I had years’ worth of half-finished projects stuffed into closets and cabinets because I was pouting. That’s right…feeling sorry for myself because I’d had several brilliant ideas for original hand-crafted gifts only to discover that someone else was doing the same thing.

Folks were stealing my ideas. (If one more person tells me, “Imitation is the greatest form of flattery”, I will scream!)

Here’s an example: One Christmas, I made seventy-five gorgeous broaches for my therapy clients using Grandma’s old buttons, and some hand-collected beach glass, only to find nearly identical, mass-produced pins at Nordstrom’s! (How grandiose am I, thinking Nordstroms stole my idea?)

But the theft kept happening. Each time one of my brilliant ideas was “stolen”, I had a silent tantrum, and filled with self-pity, I stuffed another incomplete project into a grocery bag and hid it in a cupboard.

Then a beloved mentor told me I was looking at it all wrong.

“No one’s stealing your ideas. You’re simply tapping into the artistic collective consciousness.”

Ahh, exactly what I needed to hear. I accepted her wisdom and committed to finishing my abandoned projects while in isolation. I had beaded necklaces and bracelets using clever magnetic closures, piles of hand-stitched baby blankets with matching burp cloths for my childbirth clients, picture frames and treasure boxes adorned with beach-glass and shells, ruffle-edged, crocheted infinity scarves, and several mixed media collages and mosaics.

That was a huge pile of unfinished stuff, just hanging around, making me feel bad about myself.  

Suddenly Covid Lockdown became a gift!

In a race against my rapidly progressing arthritis, while binge-watching movies and TV shows, I picked up a project and completed it. And then another, and another…

As I worked, I took the time to think about the person it was for—client, friend, neighbor or family member–and then finished it for them

My pile of incompletes dwindled significantly, but my collection of craft supplies did not.

I was not done.

So, I crocheted 5 more baby blankets, adorned 15 found hubcaps turning them into painted and beaded Mandalas, dried hundreds of flowers for collected thrift store vases, handmade 60 Holiday Cards with flowers and feathers, and designed 25 framed collages with inspirational quotes.

What in the world could I do with all the rest of these supplies? 

Though I’d completed my projects, I still had lifelong collections of beads, buttons, beach glass, photos for cards, yarn, shells, rocks, paints, feathers, fabric, etc.

I had to give it away because if Covid took me, no one would know the stories and history behind my collections. I’m talking about beads in their original glass tubes from little shops in the 1960’s Haight-Ashbury district, and buttons from the 1800’s that came across the plains with my ancestors in wagon trains, or the glass I picked up off remote beaches on uninhabited islands in Fiji! 

To avoid all the existential angst that “give-away” task produced, I decided to ignore it and instead, check out the Instagram thing everyone had been telling me about.  

Ironically, coincidentally and fortuitously, the second post I saw on Instagram was about this non-profit project called Loose Ends*–a name that jumped off the screen because in two little words, it captured the biggest focus of my current life. I watched the piece and burst into tears of joy and gratitude! 

Their mission?

“the Loose Ends Project aims to ease grief, create community,

and inspire generosity by matching volunteer handwork finishers

with projects people have left unfinished due to death or disability.”

Best anti-depressant ever! And an answer to a prayer I hadn’t known I’d been praying.

I’d found a perfect home for my treasured crafting supplies. 

Addendum:

Recently I moved and James built me a lovely studio, so I have a place to continue crafting whenever the urge strikes.

But after it was all set up, to my horror (and secret delight), I still had to rent a storage unit.

Can you guess what this unit contains?

Uh oh. I think I have a problem.

*(https://www.looseendsproject.org/).

Checking in

 

Well, that may be the longest stretch of NOT posting on my blog since I started it way back when…well, I don’t actually remember when my first post happened.

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But I have not posted for a whole month. And even then, and during the weeks before that, it was mostly the easiest post possible. (Thanks to whoever first coined the term WordlessWednesday!)

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I do think about it all the time though. In my mind, I create what I think are clever photography slide shows, or I write interesting or inspiring essays. But real life, the one outside my internal process, has been loudly in charge for a while. (Oh, the pitiful list of excuses I could insert here…sigh…and the thing is, my life-interruptions are similar to every person’s on the planet this last 16 months so no special sympathy for me…)

I’ve barely had the time or energy to read my favorite bloggers either.

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Self-centeredly, I do continue to check my notifications occasionally and am always pleasantly surprised to see a new follower. And a “like” on some older post can make my day!

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I always intended to welcome each new follower (I still hate that word “follower”. I’m not leading anyone anywhere! OK, each new “reader”) And I even saved each new name, but somehow those numbers climbed to 628 behind my back!!!

Realistically, I know that number does not mean that there are actually 628 people out there is the world who, with great anticipation, look forward to checking each day to see what I posted….only to be disappointed. Most likely the number is closer to 3 or 4 who look occasionally, just to see if I still happen to be alive.

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In hasty conclusion, because one of those life-interruptions is happening as I type, I long to be back at this more regularly.

Any encouragement greatly appreciated.

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And here’s a slide show with left over photos:

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Fun with Photography; soliciting reactions…3/31/21

OK, starting from the premise that all “Art” is in the eye of the beholder…

I had a great time snapping shots of our recent Worm Moon, the first (and least dramatic) of four Super Moons this year.

Worm Moon” is what the full moon of March is called. According to the Old Farmers Market, the title “Worm Moon” refers to the time of year when the ground thaws enough to allow earthworms to come out of the soil.

Although my Earth Steward/Angel friend Karuna might love the name Worm Moon (she has a thing for worms), luckily there are several other names to choose from for this particular spectacle including Eagle Moon, Sugar Moon, and my personal favorite, Crow Moon. (Karuna’s Blog…read anything in her Nature category!!! What a contribution she has made!!    https://livinglearningandlettinggo.com/)

Anyway, here are some photos, and a couple of multiple choice options on which I’d love your input, especially if you happen to be one of the amazing photographers I follow…like Marilyn, Cee, Jules, Nancy Merrill, Nes Felicio, Whippet Wisdom, V.J. Knutson, Debbie Smyth, Leya, Amy, Arati… (uh oh, I guess I follow way too many photographers to list them all…sorry.)

I do not see myself as in the same ballpark as any of these talented photo artists, but I sure learn from them….about beauty and cleverness and composition.

Moonrise Saturday, March 27, 2021

First, I went out to see the moon rising, armed with only my rapidly aging, but much loved phone, a Galaxy 8+.

I really like this phone’s camera, especially for close up shots. But with it’s just so-so telephoto capacity, it’s lousy for capturing celestial bodies.

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Moonset March 28, 2021

The next morning I got up in time to watch the beautiful moon setting, but this time, brought my little Canon Power Shot, with its great telephoto lens…amazing for a point and shoot camera.

Here are some Moonset shots, a couple I really like. Also, some opinion-questions I am really hoping someone wants to answer!

1.) The one on the right is what my camera captured. The one on the left is just slightly darkened with computer. Which is better?

2.) What I’d like an opinion about is with these next five photos is about position in the frame. (I kinda like the second one as it seems to demonstrate something geometrical or even spiritual…) 

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3.) The next four are all imperfect (not clear enough, something blocking part of the shot in each) but I like a couple. Do you like any of these?

4.) When I looked at this one on the computer, it startled me because somehow I had captured TWO, maybe THREE moons???

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But then, mystery solved and all made sense, several photos later…(Boy, does my lens need cleaning or what?!)

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5.) Here, I am experimenting with two versions of the same photo…do you prefer one?

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6.) This last one was a total accident, but it turns out, it’s my favorite. No idea why. Opinions??

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Thanks for traveling through photo-space with me. Please consider sharing any reactions or feedback in “comments”.

Oh, and, by the way, during this whole time prepping and writing this post, I never once thought about the world going to hell in a handbasket*…

Pandemic?? WHAT pandemic…??

PS Seems appropriate to include one of my favorite music videos. You may have seen it before…

*https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/To_hell_in_a_handbasket

Spirit Lifters–Day 330 being “Grounded” 1/30/21

I am running out of things to binge-watch on Hulu and Netflix….

I’m not talking about “couch potato” binge-watching. Honest.

It’s mostly for the cat. Honest.

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I recently read the perfect explanation (justification?) for my binge watching on my dear friend’s brand new blog (Lisa Chandler Jewelry)

https://lisachandler.com/blog/prismflash-studio-construction-zone/

She wrote: “…as a jewelry artist of 20+ years, I’ve never had a studio space. I’ve always created jewelry ad hoc on my lap since 1999 when I began. I like having the TV or an audiobook going in the background while I create (tell me a good story!).”

My binge watching is really binge listening. It’s background comfort and distraction noise while I am doing other things…like my covid-craft projects, or paperwork, or culling through a life-time of “stuff” in an effort to use this time wisely. Like continuing my age-appropriate down-sizing.

I sound like a hoarder…and truthfully, I guess I actually am. I save even the most unlikely scraps of memorabilia…you know, just in case. Every photograph, letter, trinket, ticket stub and card, represents something meaningful, an important memory in my life. 

I blame my Grandmother. She saved everything too. Like many in her generation, who survived the (first) “Depression”, she had more rubber bands, and scraps of used tin foil than god.

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When I was a child, and basically had no one else who cared about me, I would spend hours at Gramma’s feet while she did pretty much what I am doing now. And every unlikely saved item she touched had a story. Each time she threw something away, she first thoughtfully caressed it, then reverently told me why she saved it.

And the things she kept, she would carefully wrap or fold before putting in her grandmother’s beautiful, carved wooden “hope chest”. Those things elicited a less emotional and much more fact-filled explanation, her justification really for keeping them. 

“This was your Great Grandmother’s bonnet. She wore this in the covered wagon trip from Missouri to Salt Lake City. This has great historical value.”

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I learned from both categories of her “things”, the trash and the treasures. I learned about our family, our history, our legacy…and, these downsizing events with my grandmother helped me finally understand my Mom.

This whole preventative isolation thing has me thinking about some monumental things; like mortality, aging, and use of my remaining time here…some of it, quite frightening and very painful. I know I am not alone in this…

Thus, the needed relief of instant, focus-shifting, binge-watching in the background.

When I started this Spirit Lifters series, using the word “grounded” in my titles was because that’s what my doctor told me. She said, in her straightforward way, “you are in all the highest risk categories, not just for contracting this virus, but dying from it so if you want to survive, you are grounded for the duration”, as in “Go to your ROOM. You are GROUNDED!” (She barely meant in a humorous way.)

Anyway, I woke up this morning with the profound realization that just as Mother Nature is “culling” our species, maybe even for the planet’s survival, all of this binge-watching, and crafting, and sorting, has provided us all with the perfect background for culling through our own lives….a meaningful distraction from the existential crisis we are all facing.

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So being grounded by my Doc is exactly what has worked for me to stay “grounded” and centered through easily the most terrifying time in my life…

It was during one of these paper-sorting, binge-watching times I heard this song in the background. It was on, of all things, Bones. (I told you I am running out of things to watch…) At first, I thought it was Bono singing, but it’s Starsailor, a group I barely remember from the early 2000’s. It’s a beautiful, slightly haunting piece. The melody, by association, now grounds me when I hear it…..I hope you enjoy it.



Songwriters: Barry Westhead / Benjamin Byrne / James Stelfox / James Walsh
Some of Us lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc

There you have it. I hope, if you have actually read all of this, you will respond with a comment. Tell me what your favorite distraction has been during our year of pandemic.

A plea from a wall-climbing, screaming extrovert, with no one to talk to!!!

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Spirit Lifters–Day 328 of being “grounded”

I don’t do Facebook so I don’t know the protocol here. Forgive me if I am stepping on anyone’s toes. I don’t know who to credit. Not even sure this will work, and anyway, you may have already seen it.

But just in case you missed it, this definitely lifted my spirits!!

(Warning: rated R due to completely forgivable fowl language…but it IS a Cat, so there’s that…)

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=3623336671049566&id=100001198050321